I truly believe that to be naked is to strip bare of everything that is holding you back. To be present and express everything you believe in. It's to overcome the limitations posed by yourself and to resonate with your own soul. When I talk about ‘being naked’, I am not referring to the undressing of the body, I am talking about the undressing of the soul and the act of being naked with your hearts truth.
I have learnt only in the last month or so, how to truly bare my soul. It’s frightening because It means I am left with the remains of my life to work with. However, it is also liberating to know that I am so much more than my outer shell.
I remember when I went on my first holiday with my boyfriend. Prior to this vacation away, I had vouched never to visit a hot country again. I had a physical reminder of my past that I wanted to keep hidden however, for some reason I also had a part of me that wanted to take this opportunity to embrace my inner beauty and Just strip myself from my past.
I remember the words…
“You’re more than your past. You’re way more than what has happened to you. You’re Taylor”
This stuck in my mind. The fact that I wasn’t just my physical portrayal. Instead, I had an aura inside of me that had not yet been discovered. I could not keep letting the past keep a grip on me and instead, I had to force myself to look in the mirror and uncover my mind, body and soul; the things which I had forgotten remained. Thats what was so exciting though, that i had so much left. There was so much I had pushed to the back of my mind and forget about, which I now had the chance to recover.
A week away, that will now stick in my mind as the time I uncovered my true self and for the first time in nearly 3 years, allowed myself to enjoy the beauty of the world without feeling like my presence was making it ugly. I was petrified of course. I would be lying If i said I wasn’t. However, now that i knew it was possible, I wanted to help others.
The physical repercussions of my past haunted me for years and kept me hidden behind this facade. However, being on holiday with my skin bare and open to the warmth of the sun made me feel alive again. I was naked. My soul, my past..everything was on show and I just didn’t care.
I embraced this opportunity and allowed the external radiance to rid me of any guilt, shame or grief. This simple act of stripping bare, made me realise that everything comes down to energy. Our thoughts and feelings emit a radiation; what we send out, we receive back. As a result of this, whatever our attention is focused on, is what will grow. If you choose to focus on happiness, Joy and laughter; this is exactly what you will receive back. Whereas, if you focus on pain and guilt, this is what you will experience more of.
I have now learnt to say Yes to 'what is' because I know 'what has happened' cannot be changed. However, i do know that how i let it affect me, can. I have begun letting in, instead of letting go. I found it so easy to push people away because it meant I could hide my true self. However, this was not a healthy coping mechanism.
Finally, I have learnt to stay with the physical feeling. When I was on holiday in just my bikini, my mind was racing and all sorts of negative thoughts were channelling through my mind. I decided to push this aside and focus on the physical sensations I was experiencing; tightness of chest, a hollowness, a shooting pain, an aching heart… I went along with it and embraced it. I stood ‘naked’ and let these sensations become intense and at one point overbearing and then i became kind. I became comfortable with the discomfort, I became brave.
Stripping yourself naked, really allows you to experience the thoughts and emotions we usually find difficult. However, It is really important to do this, if you want to turn with gratitude to the present and feel that you’ve finally let go of what has held you back for so long. I thank my family and friends, especially my partner who saw my naked soul and what I was really about, before I was able to. He accepted my faults and my past, and helped me to move on with my life.
So, be naked with yourself and allow yourself to be present. The world is a beautiful place and there is so much out there to discover, but you cannot truly place yourself in these moments if you are being held back by your past.
Do it NOW!
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